Its been quite some time since I wrote on the forum and the reason is fairly simple. There was a tragic death in the family and it is why I find myself posting this message now. My uncle (my fathers brother) who was very close to us committed suicide!On a normal moday morning he walked out the door of his family home without waking his daughter who worked for him and without eating or drinking anything. He drove an hour to his work where he hung himself. I am sorry to be so graffic but this is the way things were. Now, if you knew my uncle I can gaurantee that you would have thought he was the last person you know that suffered from depression. I guess that is the most dangerous kind of depression. He ran his own buisness and it had resulted in a terrible amount of anxiety but unfortunately he could not communicate that and had obviously lived in his own head for a long time and convinced himself he would never feel any better and that everyone would be better off without him.
The reason I am writing this is that depression and feelings of despare are so common in today's society and problems with physical health can often affect the mind and vice versa. I just urge anyone who may feel desperate and unable to talk about their feelings to please, please find a way to do it. It is very important. Perhaps this forum is more important than we even realise. I live in the highlands of Scotland where suicide rates are very high and my uncle who also lived up here was very, very popular in this community and beyond but unfortunately he couldn't turn to those who loved him. It doesn't have to be someone that you know well. It can be a health professional, an internet site or the samaritans but please remember that there is always someone who will listen if you feel low.